Been a while
I just pulled up my blog and realized it has been entirely waaaay too long since I’ve been on here. uggh…life gets so busy sometimes.
In all the craziness, I find myself amazed at God’s mercy and grace. The mercy He shows me that is so undeserved. Sunday was an amazing day at Beachside for me. I was not feeling well, Emily and Drew both had the flu and we had a worship set to do…. Buhm Buhm Buhm….and guess what? God gave us the grace to do it.
Sunday was also just a random day of stories. I spoke with several people I know that had amazing stories of God’s grace and mercy. Not gonna lie, I was blown away and quickly reminded of a time when I was as far away from God as I could get. The cool thing about God is that He goes with you even when you tell Him you don’t want Him there. Much like these people I spoke with, I found myself living a life I never thought possible (in a bad way). All I could think of was the day God finally got a hold of me and made it all so clear, “this was not the life I was born to live”. The very next day I found myself in church, and as uncomfortable as it was I forced myself to stay there. As time passed, that guilt and condemnation fell to the side. The more I worshipped, the more comfortable it became.
I will never forget how stupid I felt for ever walking away from God. I hope I never forget the deep and amazing love I felt when I came crawling back begging His forgiveness and He granted it freely. God forgives and forgets. He throws our sin into the sea of forgetfulness, never to be reminded of it. As far as the east is from the west, so has He removed our sin. I will always worship Him for that. No one else can do that for me and no one in this lifetime will ever fill me up and wash me clean the way He can.
I find it humerous how we can be so proud of ourselves for the way we forgive each other. I’ll speak for myself…when I am wronged, I struggle with holding a grudge. So when the time finally comes that I am ready to let it go, I am so proud of myself for just releasing it and trusting God to deal with that person. The whole thing is just such a joke… that’s the easy thing to do! God commands us to forgive as we have been forgiven. We have no right to hold a grudge against someone, when our slate has been completely wiped clean… So, the challenge is to forgive instantly as painful as it will be…
Forgiveness……Priceless.
